Besides the fact that I'm having a headache today, I'm starting to feel my so-called "MID-WEEK BREAKDOWN"...
Sad to say, there's no pill that I can swallow to cure me at the moment...
It's been weeks already that I've been feeling this way...Honestly, I know I made a better choice...I chose to have a better career and financial path...But as the days and weeks pass, I start to get worried about how will I end up...
I know that some of the people, who came in and left to choose the same decision I just made, are doing better now...My mind is saying I can, but my heart and spirit are feeling weak...Day by day, getting rejections or no responses from the few that I've submitted sickens me already...In addition, I am on the family pressure that I need to get a replacement [from the choice I made] because I need to help them for us to survive...My head's rambling thoughts right now that I can utilize my plans properly...One thing sure at the moment, I can make our needs for survival but not to be superbly rich...I dream to have a family of my own too, you know...
Few of my friends keep giving me reasons not to give up and be positive that some good things would turn out soon...Some, in fact, say that the power of prayers do help...But, sometimes, I know it isn't right, but I start to question if is there really a right prayer formula for success??? Do I have to cry so hard just for me to be heard??? Maybe, I'm just pessimistic and impatient...because I know my days are numbered too...Still, thanks to you guys for not giving up on me...
I just don't want to listen to those who would keep asking me, what's gonna happen next for me??? Or some thing like, am I sure of my decision??? Effing...YES I AM SURE...I'm taking the risk than staying confined in a rut of not doing something I would love to do...I'm willing to the take the risk of being in another place to fulfill my passions...
I just don't want to think about worrying what I'll end up for a day...
I just want to finally get the improvement I deserve -- hopefully in a better place...
I just want to take a hiatus from this negativity...
DEAR LORD, they say that good things come to those who wait and have faith...With Your guidance and blessings, keep me intact...Bless me for the good things to finally come to prosper one after the other...I don't know what to do anymore...I've been working on it, but still You are the Provider...You are the only source...
**song for the week: My Hands - David Archuleta**
I know that some of the people, who came in and left to choose the same decision I just made, are doing better now...My mind is saying I can, but my heart and spirit are feeling weak...Day by day, getting rejections or no responses from the few that I've submitted sickens me already...In addition, I am on the family pressure that I need to get a replacement [from the choice I made] because I need to help them for us to survive...My head's rambling thoughts right now that I can utilize my plans properly...One thing sure at the moment, I can make our needs for survival but not to be superbly rich...I dream to have a family of my own too, you know...
Few of my friends keep giving me reasons not to give up and be positive that some good things would turn out soon...Some, in fact, say that the power of prayers do help...But, sometimes, I know it isn't right, but I start to question if is there really a right prayer formula for success??? Do I have to cry so hard just for me to be heard??? Maybe, I'm just pessimistic and impatient...because I know my days are numbered too...Still, thanks to you guys for not giving up on me...
I just don't want to listen to those who would keep asking me, what's gonna happen next for me??? Or some thing like, am I sure of my decision??? Effing...YES I AM SURE...I'm taking the risk than staying confined in a rut of not doing something I would love to do...I'm willing to the take the risk of being in another place to fulfill my passions...
I just don't want to think about worrying what I'll end up for a day...
I just want to finally get the improvement I deserve -- hopefully in a better place...
I just want to take a hiatus from this negativity...
DEAR LORD, they say that good things come to those who wait and have faith...With Your guidance and blessings, keep me intact...Bless me for the good things to finally come to prosper one after the other...I don't know what to do anymore...I've been working on it, but still You are the Provider...You are the only source...
**song for the week: My Hands - David Archuleta**
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